You’re the One I’ve violated,
and you’ve seen it all,
seen the full extent of my evil.
You have all the facts before you;
whatever you decide about me is fair.
I’ve been out of step with you for a long time,
in the wrong since before I was born.
What you’re after is truth from the inside out.
Enter me, then; conceive a new, true life.
PSALM 51:4-6 (THE MESSAGE)
Truth from the inside out – that is what I wanted desperately. I knew from past experiences –past monumental moments of my life – I needed to once again get to the root of my weakness – my sin. I needed God through His Holy Spirit who had seen it all to expose those lies that I believed – the lies that motivated me to continually end up burnt out and broken. I knew that unless those lies were exposed and pulled out by the root and then replaced with His Truth that I would be destined to repeat the history of my life – burnout and then breakdown.
I had always told my kids to face the truth head on. I remember saying to them “if it is not the truth then what good is it?” It was time for me to practice what I preached – face the truth head on and not be afraid because as Abba’s Child, God has promised to lead us to truth – His Truth and the truth about ourselves.
“When the Spirit of truth comes,
he will guide you into all truth.”
JOHN 16:13 (NLT)
God had shown me the Truth before – I knew He would show me again. So unafraid I, too, cried out, as did King David, enter me, then; conceive a new, true life because I knew nothing but the Truth would satisfy my thirsty soul. I knew that He knew me inside out and my Abba Father would gently expose what I could not see myself because …
How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart?
Cleanse me from these hidden faults.
PSALM 19:12 (NLT)
And this is exactly what God did for me – He showed me my hidden faults – faults that I had no idea existed within me – lies that I believed to be true. The revelation of these truths about myself helped to set me free.
“… And you will know the truth,
and the truth will set you free.”
JOHN 832 (NLT)
My prayer for you is that when you don’t understand why you do what you do and why history keeps repeating itself in your life that you not be afraid and allow God to show you the truth about yourself and you too will experience the freedom that only He can give.
So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.
JOHN 8:36 (NLT)
On the Journey with You,