Cancer, Faith, The Winds of Change, Words of Endurance

I really struggle with surrendering my plans to God. Surrender feels like weakness to me. That’s why I’ve memorized this quote by Henrietta Mears:
“The greatness of a man’s power is the measure of his surrender.”
BEVERLY JONES



After Dave’s comeback game, I figured he would continue pitching and go on to complete a satisfying Major League baseball career. I was excited about the opportunities baseball could give him to share what God had done in his life through his battle with cancer. And as far as our personal life was concerned, I thought the worst was over. I thought life would finally return to “normal,” that there would be no more major changes or surprises on the horizon.



I was wrong on both counts. My desires for Dave’s baseball career and my plans for our life as a couple and as a family weren’t selfish. In fact, they were completely normal. But they were my plans. They obviously weren’t in God’s plan.



Four days after Dave’s comeback game, the winds of change upgraded to hurricane status and stayed there long enough to sweep away any thought of rebuilding life exactly as it had been before. First, Dave’s arm broke. Then it broke again. Then the cancer returned. Then Dave needed more surgery, additional treatment, more setbacks, and finally the amputation. During that process, I not only gave up on my plans, I was beginning to seriously question God’s plans.



I eventually learned (the hard way) that drastic changes in our lives require us to identify and grieve our losses in order to maintain our emotional and spiritual health. We have to acknowledge the things that are precious to us that we have lost in the storm. Those losses may be things like our dreams for the future, our career aspirations, our innocence, and in our case, even a pitching arm.



Like other people who have come face to face with the storms of change, I had to face the reality that God might have other plans—and that I might not like them. If it comes down to a tug-of-war with God over who gets their way, God is going to win. Scripture assures me that He will: “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails” (Proverbs 19:21). We have but two choices: fight God and resist His plan or surrender to God and submit to His plan. Although making that choice is easier said than done, I can truthfully say that every divine detour God gave us ended up being the very best thing that could have happened.



When Jesus faced the ultimate storm, His death on the cross, He looked God straight in the eye and spoke these all-too-human words, “My father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me” (Matthew 26:39). This simple plea is what makes Him the perfect Savior. He understands our human nature, our resistance to change, our struggle to surrender our desires and plans to Him. In contemporary terminology, He’s “been there, done that.” Now He stands prepared to empower, encourage, and embrace us as we face the storms of life, the inevitable changes that are a part of our journey here on earth.



. . . Let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
HEBREWS 4:14-16

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Faith, Trust, When God is Silent, Words of Endurance

Suffering often distorts our perception of God. C.S. Lewis, when he was grieving his wife’s death, wrote that God “seemed to have his eyes shut, his ears stopped with wax.” After going through a crisis of faith, during which he doubted all that he had ever believed about God and Christ, Lewis went on to observe that “you can’t see anything properly when your eyes are blurred with tears.”



Despite the numbing deafness and blindness brought on my suffering, God doesn’t change. He is still present. He is still reaching out, still speaking His love to us. But He may be speaking in a way that we don’t expect. So consider the different ways God speaks to us. Perhaps you’ll discover that He has been speaking all along.



God can Speak in a Still, Small Voice


The prophet Elijah had seen God work in mighty ways, and, as we sometimes do, expected God to speak with a thunderous voice. When his life was threatened by a vengeful queen and God seemed to do nothing, Elijah gave up all hope. God found him hiding in a mountain cave and said,”‘Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.’ Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave” (1 Kings 19:11-3). Elijah recognized the quiet whisper as the voice of God, and he listened as God spoke to him and told him what to do next.



God can speak through His Spirit


God’s spirit has always been God’s mouthpiece to those who follow Him. In the Old Testament we read, “O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you…Whether you turn to the right or the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it'” (Isaiah 30:19-21). And in John 16:13, Jesus made a solemn promise to His disciples: “But when he, the Spirit of truth. He will no speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.”



God Can Speak Through His Word


“All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness” (2 Timothy 3:16).



God’s primary way of speaking to us is through His Word. Scripture is more than simply words on paper. Hebrews 4:12 says is alive and powerful. When we read it, God can speak to us through a story or a passage, confirming our direction, challenging our thinking, correcting our behavior, or encouraging us in our struggles.



God Can Speak Through His People


“Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart, and the pleasantness of one’s friend springs from his earnest counsel” (Proverbs 27:9).



When we feel that God is distant, when He seems silent, He may send us physical and tangible proof that He not only hears us but is actively working to meet our greater need for love and encouragement. How does He do this? He does it through the Body of Christ, through the hands and feet, the hugs and tears of His children. God knows that we need His love and grace more than we need His answers. That’s why His followers are commanded to “use whatever gift [they have] received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms” (1 Peter 4:10).



God Can Speak Through His Creation


The awesome beauty and complexity of God’s creation has always testified of His greatness and love. Job 36:26-37:5 gives us just a glimpse of how God speaks through His creation. “How great is God – beyond our understanding! The number of his years is past finding out. He draws up the drops of water, which distill as rain to the streams; the clouds pour down their moisture and abundant showers fall on mankind. Who can understand how he spreads out the clouds, how he thunders from his pavilion? See how he scatters his lightning about him, bathing the depths of the sea. This is the way he governs the nations and provides food in abundance. He fills his hands with lightning and commands it to strike its mark. His thunder announces the coming storm; even the cattle make known its approach. At this my heart pounds and leaps from its place. LIsten! Listen to the roar of his voice, to the rumbling that comes from his mouth. He unleashes his lightning beneath the whole heaven and sends it to the ends of the earth. After that comes the sound of his roar; he thunders with his majestic voice. When his voice resounds, he holds nothing back. God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways; he does great things beyond our understanding.”



God Can Speak Through Circumstances


Sometimes the events of life are a visible testimony to what God is doing. Jesus told His disciples to “Look at the fig tree and all the trees. When they sprout leaves, you can see for yourselves and know that summer is near. Even so, when you see these things happening, you know that the kingdom of God is near” (Luke 21:29-31 [italics added]).

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Dealing With Doubt, Doubt, Faith, Hope, Trust, Words of Endurance

Although they were unsettling,
my doubts led me to search,
to ask questions that eventually strengthened my faith.
Pastor Frederick Buechner has called our doubts
“the ants in the pants of faith – they keep it alive and moving.”
I had a lot of ants.
JAN DRAVECKY



Debbie had been battling MS the majority of her adult life. She was worn out – not just physically and emotionally but spiritually as well.



“I seem to have lost God in all of this,” she shared. “I feel like I’m losing hope and what’s worse is that I can’t see God. I need so much to feel His presence but I can’t see Him. I even feel silly for believing in God. I wonder if God is real. What is it that I believe? What have I put my faith in?”



Her words, although they may seem shocking to some people, were no surprise to me. Many people who have endured a season of suffering echo the same doubts. Have you been there?



A number of years ago, Debbie’s words could have been my own. In the midst of a deep depression, I reached a point where I felt stupid believing in a God I couldn’t see. I wanted to see God visually because I could no longer feel him. I could so identify with the disciple Thomas, also known as “Doubting Thomas.”



“Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”
JOHN 20:25 (WORDS OF THE DISCIPLE THOMAS)



But the Bible tells us that we are not to live by our own sight –



For we live by faith, not by sight.
2 CORINTHIANS 5:7



No human can literally see God and live but I learned that there are definitely ways for us to “see” God.
We can “see” God in His Word.
We can “see” God through His Son, Jesus.
We can “see” God in the love of others.
We can “see” God through the beauty of His creation.
We can “see” God as we look back on the times we know He touched and worked in our life.



The next several weeks we will be exploring each one of these ways for us to “see” God. Hopefully this will open the eyes of our hearts to “see” a glimpse of our invisible God. I pray that you discover, as I did, that He’s not so invisible after all.



Be merciful to those who doubt …
JUDE 22



On the journey with you,
Jan Dravecky

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